I had an interesting conversation with my Dad today while we were at my house. He voiced some of his concerns regarding our new house. He was near tears, and of course with me being me I too felt like crying. He outlined a possible scenario of how my life might turn out with this living arrangement. He is afraid for me, that I might end up wasting my life away taking care of someone else's family or be reduced to a live in babysitter/maid. He knows me too well. He knows that I am perfectly capable of sacrificing my life to take care of others. There is a great possibility of that happening. I've done it in the past with my siblings, my ex boyfriends, my friends. I do it now. I could end up unmarried taking care of my sister's household and kids.
So I am sitting here listening to "Forever Yours".. a compilation of traditional and contemporary wedding ceremony songs... trying find the right song(s) for the ceremony. Ugh. It's starting isn't?
I want someone to take care of. Someone who will want to take care of me as much as I want to take care of him. Someone who sees me as I see him. Someone to protect me. Someone to worry about, and yet still feel comforted in knowing I don't have to worry about myself. I want to know who it is that I am missing.
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