I'm working on my next super long blog entry. I've been writing brain dumps in my blog and in my journal for weeks now. At some point I will put them together into something once I have a moment to get it straight in my head. For now I feel like this:
SILLY. SAD. EXCITED. NERVOUS. SOBER. JEALOUS. REBELLIOUS. FRUSTRATED. LOVED. IGNORED. UNDER APPRECIATED. NEEDED. DRUNK. DISAPPOINTED. OVERACHIEVER. SURPRISED. LET DOWN. OCD. SLEEPY. HYPER. CONFUSED. ANXIOUS. IRRITATED. ANGRY. RUSTY. SENSITIVE. MISUNDERSTOOD. ALONE. PHOBIC. DETERMINED. MESSY. ACCOMPLISHED. BITTER. RANDOM.
It's been over a month since: I've slept more that 5 hours in a night. Taken a nap. Been to Vegas. Eaten at Honda-ya. Seen my Girls. Worn work pants. Gone to Church. Had a John Legend sigh. Did something creative that didn't involve the Wedding. Talked to him. Had the non-stop giggles. Was given a good hug. Worn my School Ring.
I'd say cry too, but I did that last night...while I was printing more shower invites, and shopping for my shoes for the wedding online..It was good. I needed a good cry. Unfortunately I think it was too little too late. I'm disappearing. I want my ring back.
Two more weeks. THERE'S NOT ENOUGH TIME!
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