Loves and Hates

I recently updated my MySpace Profile...yes, I know...I'm one of THOSE...hee hee. It got me thinking of my likes and hates. Here we go (in no particular order).

1. LOVE my family and friends. (okay so that's kind of a given)
2. HATE liars, cheaters, and all around swindlers (another given)
3. LOVE Junior Mints.
4. HATE wearing shoes. Actually, I'm not that fond of socks either.
5. LOVE flip-flops. If I could, I would wear them to work.
6. HATE driving. My parents to used to drive me around for hours until I fell asleep when I was a baby, now long car rides make me sleepy.
7. LOVE living in Southern California. I don't think I could live anywhere else, not even Northern California. I know its the same state, but please!
8. HATE how it only takes me a split second to remember the horrible things he said to me two and half years ago, and yet it takes me longer to remember something good that happened to me last month.
9. LOVE rainy weather and sitting inside in my pajamas with hot chocolate and a blanket.
10. HATE the mole under my right eye. It's grown considerably in the past few years and I swear its grown its own face that winks at me whenever I look at it in a mirror.
11. LOVE the smell of Vicks.
12. HATE when girls don't wear bras when they clearly should.
13. LOVE to take naps and sleep in.
14. HATE when people say things under their breath and when you ask them what they said they say "Oh Nothing".
15. LOVE all things LV and Burberry. If I could I would own everything LV and Burberry.
16. HATE the words tit, titty, and pussy. And yes this is the only time you will ever see me type or write it. Also, you will never ever hear me SAY those words, EVER.
17. LOVE my job. While I may complain about it a lot, I don't mind going to the office and doing my work.
18. HATE how its super easy for me to gain weight, but losing is 10 times harder.
19. LOVE huggible hangers. They give me so much more closet space!
20. HATE how I grew up VERY sheltered in the pink bubble.
21. LOVE how I was able to go to USC.
22. HATE how I will be paying for school loans till I'm 40.
23. LOVE pizza. Its the best food ever.
24. HATE public speaking or having soo much attention put on me.
25. LOVE TV/Movie nite with the Girls. Even if we end up sleeping through parts of it, we still have tons of laughs and yummy food.
26. HATE my braces and that my Dr. told me that I have to wear them for another 6-8 months (Thats 2-4 months longer than originally anticipated).
27. LOVE how my one front tooth is no longer rotated 45 degrees because of my braces. yeeps!
28. HATE two faced people.
29. LOVE Target, I go almost once a week, its the best.
30. HATE that I walk in to Target to buy toothpaste and walk out with $100 worth of stuff.
31. LOVE how Justin Timberlake brought sexy back.
32. LOVE the summertime when days are longer.
33. LOVE to daydream.
34. LOVE the beach and living closer to the coast where it doesn't get as hot as living in the Valley or IE.
35. LOVE the sound of an ice cold can of coke being opened and poured into a tall glass.
36. LOVE that I get season tickets to the USC Football games and every year that I get them I move up a few rows..and over a section. Eventually I will be in the front on the opposite side of the stadium (maybe when I am 80).
37. LOVE the colors cardinal and gold.
38. LOVE to sing, even though I am not that good.
39. LOVE that I passed my EIT without much studying.
40. LOVE to watch soap operas.
41. LOVE John Legend...sexy voice, sexy boy. yum.
42. LOVE that I have more than what is needed to live.
43. LOVE that I am never alone for HE is always with me.
44. LOVE how the LOVEs outweigh the HATEs!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

So Long to 2006...

Let's see if I can think that far back...

January - My sister turned 23.

February - Still trying to remember...

March - My friends had a huge baby shower. There were easily over 100 peoples there. I went to FishFest for the first time (so many stairs!) with MC, Joanne, Joanna, and Jourdan. Later that week I went to a Black Eyed Peas concert featuring the Pussycat Dolls with MC and her random friend Lucky. My mom turned ??.

April - My brother turned 17 (gulp). I saw my cousin in vegas who turned 21 (double-gulp). I hadn't seen him since he was starting high school. Went to my other cousin's wedding in Las Vegas at the Bellagio. My parents had went ahead and saw my Auntie and Uncle's house there and decided they wanted to look for a house there for possible retirement. My brother, sister, and I left Sunday morning and by the time we got home, not only did my parents look at a few houses, but they bought one.

May - My Orthodontist told me that the progress on my teeth was great and that I only had about a year to go. Yay! My sister started working with me at H&A. We even sit next to each other.

June - There was a falling out between my mom and one of the other members for the church we were attending. By Father's Day is blew up into this whole ordeal with pastors and random church leaders/elders calling us and coming to our house. By the end of the month we had left that church. It broke my heart.

July - I spent the 4th of July at the Vegas House. I saw Ringo. My dad and I were followed by some creepy guy in WalMart. I turned 26 and for my birthday my family took me to Ruth's Chris. I got a LV bag. My friends took me to have Thai on PCH. yummy! My dad turned ??.

August - Max turned 1. Yay!

September - USC Football season started. I went to a retreat with the Foundry with MC and Joanne. My department had field review in Buena Park for the day. MC's nephew turned 2 and we played in the bounce house. Olivia had her wedding shower in Vegas. I saw Phantom at the Venetian.

October - I went to the USC v Washington Game and the USC v Arizona Game. My mom fell in the parking lot at work and her shoulder got dislocated. After hours and hours of pain, tons of drugs, and several tries, they put her to sleep to pop the arm back into the socket. She hasn't been back to work since. Also since it happened during her lunch break (she was on her way back into the hospital) she is not eligible for workman comp. My cousins from the Philippines came by to go to Disneyland. At the end of the month I saw Chris Tomlin in concert with MC and Joanne.

November - Olivia and Ray got hitched. Yay! I went to the USC v Cal Game. My uncle had surgery and spent his recovery with us. My mom's cousin flew in from the Philippines and we spent Thanksgiving together.

December - USC lost to UCLA...::sigh::...Harris Holiday Party, Group Holiday Lunch, Spent Christmas in Vegas...etc..

I think I like him...

but then again...

He's a boob talker...ewww.

Happy Face!

My iPod was at my desk when I got to work this morning. Whoopi!

Also, after a LONG day at work, I have officially started my weekend. I have tomorrow off and I am still debating on if I want to go to Vegas this weekend.

sad face...

My iPod shuffle wasn't in my purse when I got home today. I hope I left it at work. I hope that if I did leave it at work, that it doesn't get jacked.

Damn it. I was just saying how small it is and that I hope I don't lose it or forget its in my pocket and accidently wash it.

I really hope it's sitting on my desk under some papers. That was the last time I saw it...

::sigh::

Merry Christmas!

Okay, so I am a day late...I would have blogged sooner, but I spent the weekend at my parents Vegas House...and well...there was NO INTERNET! Ahhh! So here goes my recap of the Holiday Weekend.

Monday (12/18) - This was just another Manic Monday...

Tuesday - I had my review. It went really well, except my boss told me that I talk to much and was told to keep it to a minimum. I've worked there for 3 1/2 years and not once was this on my review (my boss seemed shocked that she would have to tell me) It wasn't put on my offical review, but I was told to reel it in a bit, especially since a lot of the work I do requires a lot of detail and my boss does not want my concentration broken. Speaking of concentration, I did get the final draft of a report I had been working on completed and PDF'ed for our client. I even was able to print the final copy and have it signed for making copies and binding the following day.

Wednesday - This was my last day of the work week before vacation...and man, father time hates me. I had a HUGE report that needed to go out. The body of the report was pretty much done, signed, and printed. We were just finishing printing out the appendices (several reams of 11"x17" sheets folded) when the developer (not our client) informs us of a little mistake in our report and wants us to fix it ASAP so that they can get their money before the end of the year. Of course when this whole thing was blowing up in my face, my boss was out of the office for meetings (yay me). I had to deal with the cranky Developer (not our client) and "listen" to them, through email, whine to the City (our client) about the whole thing. Anyways, it was looking like I would have to redo portions of the report and possibly reprint the annoying appendices to account for the changes. I planned on staying late to at least get the draft done, I figured my boss and my intern could handle the binding. Unfortunately, the Developer didn't email me the stuff I needed until after 7 (I was in Ikea doing a little shopping).

Thursday - Vacation Day - NOT- Because the developer didn't get back to us until late, I decided to come into work in the morning to get things squared away. I worked for about 2 hours. My boss told me to just go because the Developer was being a stupid bitch (she said it not me!). Have I mentioned that the Developer is not our client?

So I went shopping. Later that evening Christine picked me up and we drove to Carson to have Alias Nite at Olivia and Ray's place. We took a tour. Its cute. They are so grown up and they have a Will&Grace couch. I'm jealous. The Mrs. made us Chicken and Rice. It was yummy, I tried really hard not to eat with a spoon a fork (filipino style). I almost did it too until I got seconds. After dinner (and a few episodes of the Cosby Show) we watched Alias. Christine and I were each sitting in a recliner and Olivia was parked in the Will&Grace couch. Olivia fell asleep somewhere towards the end of the first episode and I started to does a little too. I was testing the recliner and it locked in the recline position. It took forever and a lot of giggling from me and Christine to get the chair back to normal...hee hee.

Friday - I slept in. Around 10:30 my brother, my cousin, and his half-brother left for Vegas. We made good time and got there around 3. We dropped off my cousins and my brother and I took the long way to my parents home in North Las Vegas. We went to the bank and it was freezing. Then we went to Arby's where I hit the retarted ramp thinging in the drive through and left a scratch...er..dent about an 2 inches long, 1 inch wide near the back left tire...arrgh.

Saturday - I used the oven for the first time to make bacon. (we dont have a good frying pan yet). My parents, sister, and uncle arrived. We went to Costco and bought lots of food. I drank a beer with the pizza we bought at Costco.

Sunday - We ate some yummy Japanese food for lunch. I tried tempura ice cream. It was delicious a lot like fried ice cream. My sister, brother, and I went shopping. We cooked up a nice meal and watched the Hawaii vs. ASU game. I drank another beer. After dinner we opened presents and I took lots of pics too. I got my iPod shuffle and an LV wallet and the final season of I Love Lucy.

Monday (12/25) - We totally over slept. My brother and I took our time leaving and didn't hit the road until 2:30 pm. There was so much traffic. We didn't get home until after 9 pm. I definitely think its worth waking up and leaving at the butt-crack of dawn.

All in all it was a pretty relaxing time in Vegas. And I actually drank 2 beers. Granted it was on separate days and it was lite beer..but still...that's a lot for me. heh heh.

Ring-a-ding

Back in November I lost my ring over in my parents Vegas house. I thought it might be somewhere inside the house, but that it probably flew somewhere random and I would never find it again. Well I was wrong!

My Mom, Dad, and Uncle were over at the Vegas house this past weekend and they found my ring! My Dad had accidently kicked it in the driveway and my Uncle saw it and showed it to my Mom who confirmed that it was indeedy-do my ring. IT WAS IN THE DRIVEWAY!

The ring is a little loose. I bought it when I turned 25 as a promise ring to myself. Its a silver mesh ring from Tiffany's with heart on it. They don't have half sizes, and the 7 was too tight on my ring finger and the 8 too big. I bought a size 8 and it fit perfectly on my middle finger. Since then I have lost some weight and the ring is now loose. Because it's loose, I don't always notice that it has slipped off. Since the ring is mesh I can't have it size. I still can't believe that they found my ring!

I found my shoes!

On Friday was my company holiday party at the Pacific Club in Newport Beach. The attire was semi-formal, so I decided to wear the wine colored dress that I wore to Olivia's wedding. My sister wore the same thing she wore to the wedding too. The food was good. They served both Chicken and Steak with a mound of mashed potatoes separating the two. I'm tellin ya, I have eatten too much steak this past week. I think I am red-meat out.

They gave away a few door prizes (an iPod shuffle, an iPod Nano, and a Roomba), which I did not win. Then came time for the big prize, the Trip for Two to Hawaii. I didn't win that either. Nope it was supposedly a random drawing. My "date" Valarie won. I call her my "date" because I pretty much had to ask her to go with me so that I wouldn't be a third wheel with my sister and her boyfriend, or my bosses. She's only been to one other holiday party in the 8 years she has work at H&A and the one that I make her go to she wins! Everyone at the table was totally shocked. I even dropped my dessert fork loudly on my plate because I was sooo shocked. Yep she won and I can't believe it still. Hee hee..the catch is, though, she now HAS to attend next year's holiday party because the winner of the previous year has to draw the name of next winner. I'm going to make her choose my name!

I didn't even win the centerpiece. I always win the centerpiece! ARRRGHH! Ana won the centerpiece. Both Ana and Mike also were given special recognition awards...they both totally deserved them. YAY!

Oh yeah. So, since friday I have been looking for the shoes I wore to the party. I found the empty box and looked high and low for my patent leather mary janes. They were no where to be found until just this moment when I tried to push my chair under my desk. There they were wedged neatly under the inside of my desk. How did they get there??

Whats going on with my eyes?

It's been forever and a day since the break-up and I felt oh so over it a long while back. I was taken by surprise at my reaction when I was asked how long my last relationship was and how long ago it ended. I actually felt my tear ducts produce tears and my eyes probably would have completely welled up and I would have shed few tears had I not been wearing contacts (the heat was on in the building and so they were a little dry).

It was just for a moment, but it was long enough for me to think...umm, what is going on with my eyes and why am I reacting this way? And then I got mad, not at him, but at me. I was getting upset because I had a totally involuntary reaction that in no way reflects how I was feeling about him. These tears were coming from no where. My heart wasn't hurting and no emotions or memories were suddenly evoked from the question. My eyes were on their own and were having their own spaz attack or something. That split second reaction upset me and when I am upset I want to cry. I was worried that it would make me look like I am not over it. That was making me more upset and the urge to cry was getting stronger. I didn't want to say anything else because it was getting more and more difficult to keep from crying. The harder it got, the more upset I was getting, and it was just becoming a vicious cycle. I looked ridiculous nodding "yes" when asked "Aren't you over it?" because I didn't look like I was.

I didn't cry. Actually, I should say that I didn't cry until I got into my car. I let my eyes completely well up and then I was done. I think my eyes just having caught up with my mind or heart yet. Or maybe its PMS.

I'm a carnivore!

Today was our group lunch at the supper yummy, super soft, super to die for steak on a super hot plate - Ruth's Chris. YUM-O.

Social Butterfly I am

Phew...its only Monday and I have a week of craziness ahead of me. Today we took our newest Project Analyst out to lunch at my boss-lady's favorite restaurant. (she goes to Avila's several at least 3 times a week, she has her favorite waitress and whenever we go, she just walks in a sits down and Kathy brings her an iced tea)

I ended up staying close to an hour overtime to get some work done for my boss for her meeting tomorrow morning. I also collected money for the gift card we are going to give our office manager tomorrow for her surprise baby shower. Initially I had thought that we were going to give $5-$10 each (there are 7 of us contributing). One of the girls kept asking how much we were going to give, and when I suggested $10, she turned it around to giving about $25 each since that's how much we would each have spent if we were buying gifts ourselves. I guess my sister and I had strange looks on our faces and one of the other girls chimed in with "or whatever you can". The girl who suggested $25 ended up giving me $35 and the one who chimed in with "whatever you can" gave $25. One of the our other co-workers thought $25 was a lot, so she gave $15, and so when I was going around asking people if they wanted to contribute..they asked how much and I ended up giving a range of $15 to $35. So, by the time I got everyone's money, I had $115 (excluding me and my sister). We ended up getting a$150 gift card. My sister and I felt compelled to put in the remaining $35. Is it just me or is $150 from 7 people a lot? We are only spending up the $20 on our Secret Santa gifts for our own group...where did this $25-$35 thing come from? I don't know. I didn't want to say anything because I didn't want to look like a total cheapsake..but then it turned out that a couple of other people felt the same way. I feel kinda bad about complaining about it right now...

When my sister and I got home from work, we ate a quick dinner and made the pasta salad that we are going to take tomorrow for the pot luck baby shower. Then we went to the Spectrum to pick up a gift card at Target for the office manager, a gift card at Barnes & Noble for my Secret Santa Gift, and I also bought my sister her x-mas gift.

On Thursday we are going to have our Secret Santa gift exchange. We are also going to Ruth's Chris for our department holiday lunch. yummmmmiee. I can't wait. I went there once and it was D to the E to the LICIOUS.

On Friday we are going to take one of the Admin girls out to lunch for her birthday. Then Friday night is the company Holiday Party. Rumor has it that one of the door prizes is a roomba. I wanna roomba. Although, I would like to win one of the Hawaii Trips...Aloha!

Huh?

When did it become December? November flew by, and so much happened!

Olivia is now a Mrs. and Christine is on her way to being a Mrs....and me? Well I am closer to being a Ma'am than I am a Mrs. at this point...but I will settle for Ms. if I am no longer eligible to be a Miss.

The Homecoming Game sounded like a good game, but I was at Olivia's wedding. My brother and my dad used the tickets. Apparently the young couple that were in the seats next to them got into a fight and so the guy (USC Alum) left to go get food and walk away from the fight for a little bit. His girlfriend waited, and waited, and finally got up and left (she said goodbye to my dad and brother). Then the boyfriend came back and watched the remainder of the game...My dad and brother did not pay attention to what they were fighting about, but it was a pretty heated arguement.

My intern has started...yes MY intern. I actually have a mini staff person that I am sort of responsible for. I like him, he's quirkey.

Work is continuing to be a pain in the puh-too-tee. My workload seems to be ramping up while everyone elses seems to be waining...But its cool, I have an intern now! =)

My koosh was stolen and then I found it. It was then promply stolen again and then "given" back to me. I have been hiding it so as to not have it stolen again.

I was able to convince my co-worker to go to the company holiday party this year. She almost never goes to any of these things. I think she has only been to one in the 7 or so years she has been working for the company. I told her that my sister is going with her boyfriend and me with no one and that I would be the 3rd wheel, so she better go so that I have someone to talk to while they are all boyfriend and girlfriend-ing it up at the party.

The USC vs. Cal game was a good game. My dad asked me before I left to see if the young couple had made up (see Homecoming Game above). When Christine and I got there, there was an older gentleman and a woman in their seat. The older gentleman turned out to be the guy's dad and he told us that his son and his wife were at a wedding and then the next weekend would be in Hawaii celebrating their aniversary. So I guess the couple made up afterall.

I went to Vegas for one night. I hurt my neck and lost my ring. Don't ask.

I lost .4 lbs in the past month. So sad. At least I did not gain.

randomness through email

My friend Christine and I email each other while at work...I think of it as my escape from the exciting world of financial engineering. We "talk" about whats going on, but mostly we just talk randomness...it occured to me that each email is like a mini-blog..so here are a few excerpts from our Halloween discussion:

From: Anna
Sent: Tuesday, October 24, 2006 11:02 AM
To: Christine
Subject: RE: Hi

I know what you mean about Gwen. I think I am getting old. I am just not getting some of the new songs or even fashion. I was in Wet Seal (my friend is super tiny) and, seriously?!? Not only were there little middle schoolers dressing like hoochies with their cell phones and designer purses, but there were actual hoochie MAMAs with their boobies all hanging out while they push their kids all over town. And then there is me in my sweater, cami, and jeans standing in a sea of boobies, midriffs, and bare backs (why even wear a shirt? whey not just run around in pasties for corn's sake?) Yes. I am officially old. I say things like "for corn's sake", and I listen to star, soda gives me a stomach ache, feel like my brother watches TV and listens to the radio at an unbearably high volume and yet I can't hear when someone is talking to me, and my joints make noises when I move. All signs of being OLD. ek.

Hee hee..Rusty..I know rusty..if anyone asked me to do anything technical I learned from college I would have to get back to them in about 4 years so that I can go back and retake my major. I know my dad is serious about getting drawings made up one day, but he's total procrastinating as always. We would still have a garage, we just won't have that patio in the front.

Are you dressing up for Halloween?

From: Christine
To: Anna
Sent: Tue, 24 Oct 2006 13:40:15 -0500
Subject: RE: Hi

LOL at first I was like… who’s Rusty?

Yes, signs of old age – you and me both. Minus the soda giving me a stomach ache. Yeah, sometimes I’ll walk by Wet Seal and think, oh, I like that… or that’s a bit much (or literally, little)… and then it’s like, wait a sec, this is a store for teens ? It’s like that episode of SatC when Sam does a party for this 14-year old, and the girl and her friends come up to the SatC girls and they’re all “loving” Carrie and her column and “shut up” and doing things with guys and buying bottles of dom perignon (sp???) or whatever drink it was… ridiculous. The lines between “child”, “teen” and “adult” are slowly diminishing. *sigh *

I want to dress up for Halloween to work, but don’t know as what. A co-worker is dressing as a Geisha for her Halloween party and I thought it was a good idea, but don’t want to bite her and dress like that for work. I won’t be attending any Halloween parties, for some reason Vilasay had booked a campsite for camping this weekend (if you haven’t noticed, he’s quite into camping). I thought about dressing as one of the Pink Ladies from Grease (not the naughty Sandy, I cannot get into her get-up even if it is all black). Oh well. How about you, are you dressing up?

Oh, speaking of hoochies, I was at this store called Final Choice looking for some hair pins (it’s like a Claire’s with the cheap/costume jewelry and other accessories) and along one wall were costumes… practically every normal female costume with the word “Sexy” added to the front. You can guess how all the costumes looked.

From: Anna
Sent: Tuesday, October 24, 2006 1:05 PM
To: Christine
Subject: RE: Hi

My boss wants us all the dress up for Halloween. A Geisha is cute...that might be weird to dress like that for work though. A Pink Lady would be cute too! My sister was thinking of dressing up like a plastic surgeon because she said scrubs would be the most comfy next to pajamas. I told her that I would be her "before" patient. I also told her that she could be Dr. McBitchy, but she didn't appreciate that comment. lol. I still haven't decided what I want to do. I might just throw on some devil horns and call it a day. I was also thinking of maybe dressing up like raggedy ann. Or maybe I will recycle my hippy costume from a few years ago and do that again. ::sigh:: I better decide soon.

Ugh..the "sexy " costumes. I was looking at Target.com and most of the adult costumes are truly adult. I gave up on getting a full on costume after I saw the "sexy Alice in Wonderland" and "sexy Dorothy". And then there were the couples costumes...the bowling ball and bowling pin, and ketchup and mustard costumes weren't bad at all...but then I saw the socket and the plug and I was greatly disturbed. One guess who's the socket and who's the plug...eww

From: Christine
To: Anna
Date: Tue, 24 Oct 2006 15:54:21 -0500
Subject: RE: Hi

You crack me up! Yes, I’ve seen the socket-and-plug couples costume… Bowling ball and bowling pin, now that’s original! But not a very self-image-boosting costume if the girl is the bowling ball…

Aha! A doctor! I have forgotten! My sister used to love lab days because they’d go in scrubs (or for some reason one of her classes had them wear scrubs). But since it’s not required here, I’d probably want to really dress up. But then again, I don’t know if I will. I told you the story of last year, right? I came dressed as Little Red Riding Hood (white girly top with blue checkered skirt and petticoat, white stockings and mary janes, toped with the red hood) and no one else dressed except for a little bit during lunch, and a couple of people who wore all black (as a “witch” or the guy who wore a jersey over jeans). I was so embarrassed, when I walked in I originally thought I had my days mixed up. And I didn’t bring a change of clothes. Well, my boss was dressed in 70s with psychedelic-ish jacket, white pants, a big giant ‘fro and big sunglasses. But she blended in with the day-to-day people much better than I…

USC v Washington

So I went to MY first game of the season today, USC vs Washington. Of course I didn't bring my camera, so once again it was my lousy Sidekick II to the rescue (I'm over the Sidekick II, still debating on if I should get a new phone.) Anyways, I digress as always...

We won, barely. I dunno what was going on. Maybe it was the heat. My brother was constantly glisening with sweat and he even "fell asleep" during the 4th quarter. I think that he had heat stroke and was dehyrated.

My arms hurt. Is this what a sunburn feels like? My right arm is crispy and trobbing...hmm.

Here are some pictures from the game:

just can't seem to get in sync

ugh. I stayed home sick today. I think my body is trying to tell me something...I'm tired. There is too much to do! And it's been a month since my last entry.

I know that with some careful planning I can get everything that I need to get done done when I need to get it done...and still have tons of free time to do what I want. Its like when I try to be healthy. I know that you can loose weight if you diet AND excercise...but I can't seem to do both, I either focus on the diet and slack on the excercise..or I actually do go to the gym, but I slack on my diet...and lately I haven't been focusing on either. I have been trying to be more diligent in my "quiet time" and my devotionals, but it looks like those are slipping too. I want to keep up with my journaling and blogging, but alas...I have little to say in both those departments.

It's becoming all about my workload; which has not let up, especially with "ARRAH" gone. Actually, in the long run, him being gone will lessen my workload. I just have to get passed this last project. I am finding out quite quickly that he did not get as far as he had lead on before he left and now I am left with a boatload of crap to sift thought.

I just can't seem to get my life in order. I know that if I just sit down and do some planning I will be able to work something out. I just need to schedule a time to actually DO it. Im a procrastinator...I need to work on that..I just haven't gotten around to it..NOW IS THE TIME...I have to. The new seasons are starting up.
I need to find time to work on my physical health, work on my spiritual health, and well work work as well. I also need to schedule in my shows, my journaling, my scrapbooking, and my doing things so that I have something to scrapbook. And in the middle of all that, I need to find myself a man...or a least look interesting and available (but not deperate) enough for a man to come to me...and I want a MAN not some Mama's Boy!

Now that they found love...

They're getting married!

On Friday I received my invitation to THE wedding of the fall season. Yep yep. One of my bestest 'SC gal pals is gettin' hitched in November. I am absolutely crazy about the invitation. I opened it, read and looked at every inch of the invitation and the all the pieces, and put it back together and back into it's envelope at least a dozen times when I first got it. And I have been doing the same thing everyday since then.

It's crazy! I'm crazy! I am so excited!

I love the gym!

did that sound believable? I am trying to convice myself that I love the gym, that I can't live without it, that I am addicted...it's not working though...Although its been the 5th time I have gone in the past two weeks and I already see a little difference...but its very little and I only see it in the morning before I eat anything. I think its in my head. I want it to be instantaneous. Why can't it be instantaneous?

Why?

Mello Roos...Hello Booze!

This has been one crazy week...everynite I had a hard time sleeping...everyday I woke up thinking it was the following day, then realizing it wasn't and playing catch-up all day. When I woke up this morning, I thought it was Saturday...and then my alarm clock went off and I realized I needed to get up and get my ass to work.

Monday wasn't so bad, doing the work thing...had a staff meeting and realized, oh shit there is a lot of things that need to get done by Thursday (is it Friday yet!?). Everything that we have been doing since February was leading up to August 10th (Thursday). The last day to turn in special charges to the various counties to be placed on the FY06-07 Tax Roll...exciting huh? hee hee hee. I have a couple of projects I work on for that deadline. Unfortunately, most of what I work on does not follow the same August 10th deadline. I work on the Acquisition side of the Mello Roos Districts. That's me..the auditor...auditing developer invoices and payments to determine how much they should be reimbursed. The developers do not like not being able to get to their money...and believe you me they do think of it as their money. Anywho, instead of the big deadline, and have random spurts of mini-deadlines. On Monday not only did I share the August 10th deadline with my co-workers, but I also had an August 9th deadline for my acquisition work. I was also trying to get my butt to the gym after work, but didn't make it, so I did the stretching and the weights in my room.

Tuesday started out much better, I had completed some of my major tasks that needed to be done before Thursday, which was good. I still had that Wednesday deadline for one of my projects and was really in the zone and got a ton of stuff done...then at 4:30 I open an Excel file from one of my clients and my Excel file that I had been working on all afternoon closed, without saving. AHHHH! I lost 2 hours of work. My boss told me that I need to save things more often, we discussed my deadline, she said there were other things higher on the priority list and that it could wait, and told me to just go home. So I did, and I even made it to the gym. I stayed on the elliptical for half an hour and then spent another half hour on the bike. (yay me!) I even came home and I did the stretching and the weights in my room. I missed Rock Star: Supernova...argh.

Wednesday, one day before the major deadline. I had to nag one of my bossess about one of my other projects...I hate nagging people. Everyone was stressing about August 10th, it was all about the August 10th. I was glad that my Wedenesday deadline was pushed back, but then I thought it was a shame that I had wasted all of Tuesday trying to meet it when I could have been working on something else. And I had very little to show for it because of the computer malfunction. Anywho, by the end of the day we had submitted most of what needed to be submitted. I didn't make it to the gym, I fell asleep at 7pm, woke up to watch the last half of Supernova, did the streaching and the weights in my room, showered and then watched Project Runway (you kinda had to know that Bradley was going to go bye bye, what kind of outfit was that?! and why did he do pants when it's quite obvious from past shows that his pants construction isnt the best?)

Thursday was the day. Sending out the last of what needed to be submitted, tying up the loose ends, and now we are waiting to hear from the counties if our work has been accepted. I even made it to the gym and did some crunches at home...and watched Without a Trace (I don't know why I like that show so much).

Friday was more like Fried-day. It was very hard to concentrate. We had lunch at CPK with an old co-worker. Did a lot of gossiping...momentarily broke the printer...went home on time for a change. I watched Crash and read a little.

But, yay! At least its the weekend and I can relax and not think of work until Monday! Wahoo!

Ooh I can go shopping too! I have a $25 Harris-buck that I have been saving since last November. I should buy something good...or maybe something alcoholic...either way I must save the receipt.

It's my first time!

Today I particpated in the blood drive at work. It was my first time giving blood. I was terrified. I didn't know what to expect...but it all went smoothly and I got to eat Famous Amos Cookies (which I had been craving for sometime), a coupon for a free apetizer at Chili's, and a "It's My First Time!" button.

I was suprised that I didn't feel woosie or faint or anything. When I was leaving though, I bumped into a chair and bounced into the trash can. They were looking at me like maybe I should sit back down and relax a little longer...hee hee.. I told them that's just me and its pretty normal for me to be walking into things. I tend to ping pong my way across rooms. I wore my button back in the office. One of my bossess (who is normally grumpy when he had been traveling outside the office all day) saw the button and thought it was hilarious...and very unappropriate for the office. My sister and I were on our way home anyways so no biggie.

Yay! Cable's back!

For the past several weeks the cable modem has been very moody and tempermental (a lot like my mom..ha ha..j/k...a little..) Anywho, it was never working when I wanted to go on the internet. It would work for everyone else, but not me. I know its not my computer because the internet would work when other people were using my computer, so it HAS to be me! Anyways, for the internet had been on and off for several weeks, and then about a week ago it completely shut down...no internet...AHHH! I had to resort to my Sidekick, or wait until I got to work...soooo annoying!

Then..on Saturday, I was watching Semi-Homemade with Sandra Lee (I LOVE THIS SHOW!)...She was just starting to make mini hamburgers when the cable went kaput! ARGH! So I called the cable company and they told me they could get someone out here on MONDAY! I spent the entire weekend with no internet and no TV...but I got a lot of cleaning done and watched some I Love Lucy and Sex and the City DVD's. I also rented Match Point. That movie was sooo not what I was expecting.

Yay! I'm back!

Your Testimony

Every testimony I have ever heard up until this point have been quite dramatic, "I was lost...I was a drug addict...I was in an abusive relationship...I was diagnosed with an incurable disease..etc., etc." All of which are amazing to see how their walk with God has changed their lives.

Today I attended a church service that had a guest speaker by the name of Greg Laurie. He spoke about the importance of sharing the Gospel...something that I have heard several times before, the who, the how, the when. The part that really caught my attention, though, was when he was talking about sharing your testimony. My testimony is quite boring in comparison to the ones that I have heard in the past. Greg Laurie said that your testimony doesn't have to be some huge dramatic soap opera type thing detailing the trials you have endured in your lifetime. Your testimony should not focus on what you gave up for Him, but what He gave up for you and me and everyone.

You don't know what you got till its gone

It's a shame that things, people, or even circumstances do not always get the attention they need or deserve until its gone. Everyone is guilty of it, and everyone has been a neglecter or a neglected at some point of their lives. I not just talking about big things, like people and friends who move in and out of your life, ex-boyfriends, or my old kick-boxing body. There are even those moments of regret where you know you should have done or said something but never did...Like my high school crush. Or those moments at USC, when I couldn't wait for school to be over. Why? Why did I want it to be over?

Now that I am working, I want to go back to those days at USC. I want to go back to those days when I would sleep until 11 so that I Love Lucy and Port Charles would be the first things I watch before starting my day...I can take a couple of hours to get ready, and wear flip flops all day. Instead I wake up at 6 (okay, lie its more like 7) and the first thing I watch is Good Day LA for the weather (and you know Jillian isn't always right) and I wear these ugly mary jane shoes everyday because I really don't care what goes on my feet these days. I want to go back to when my only financial worry was if I had enough money in my discretionary account, and I have the comfort in knowing that I will not have to worry about paying back my loans until after graduation. Now-a-days, I have to shell out a hunk of my paycheck to pay for my edu-muh-cation and I have to keep paying every month until 2023...I WILL BE 43! I like knowing that from mid-May to mid-August, and all the major holidays I have a set vacation. Now I have earn my vacation time and ask my boss-lady for time off and schedule them around my project deadlines, and other people's availability.

Perception is a big thing to. Sometimes ignorance is bliss, but most of the time it's just stupid. You can live your life feeling like everything is okay and then one day someone says or does something that changes how you see people, and how people see you, and your perception changes...Most of the time its for the better. Actually, its always for the better, even when it hurts like crazy its still better than being ignorant.

Its all part of growing up, learning, and letting go...I guess.

What's up with the heat?

On Monday we went to Red Rock Casino. It's nice. We played keno...or what I like to call "the cheap lazy person's gambling"...hee hee.... I picked 10 numbers, sat in one of their over stuffed chairs, ordered a coke, and "played" 12 games. Yesterday we arrived back from Las Vegas and it has been suprisingly hot here in the OC. I think I much prefer the LV (because at least there is air conditioning there).

Work seemed to fly by today. I am so happy that I had Monday and Tuesday off. yay! Now its almost the weekend again.

I sometimes love you on a Saturday Night

"Sunday morning you don't look right."

Saturday, my Auntie and Uncle were able to get a couple of extra tickets to the Ringo Starr and the All-Starr Band at Mandalay Bay - On the Beach. It was interesting. I figured it would be my only chance to see at least one of the Fab Four...even if it was Ringo. hee hee. j/k I heart Ringo too!

This was a last minute thing, so I was not prepared. The only camera I had on me at the time was my Sidekick, and it doesn't take the best photos from a distance. Arrgh.


When we arrived at the concert venue, we were thinking it was inside. We were suprised to see that it was actually On the Beach. They had set up a stage next to the wave pool and everyone (except us) had brought towels to sit on in the sand. It was nice, except for the cigarette smell (along with some doobie smells too). Once people started smoking I realized that there were random cigarette buds laying around. It was like sitting in a huge ash tray. And me with no towel to sit on, and in jeans and sneakers, when everyone else was wearing beach wear. It was still in the upper 90's when we were watching the concert (this was at 9 PM!)


If you look really closely you can see Ringo there in the middle playing his drums. I am sooo upset that I didn't have my camera with me! arrgh! Anywho in the middle slighting elevated is Ringo playing his drums. On the right (our right) is Shiela E... heehee, pronounced "Sheiler E" by Ringo. Somewhere on the left (our left) is Richard Marx. Those two where the only two in the All Starr Band that I know of. The others were Rod Argent, Billy Squier, Edgar Winter, and Hammish Stuart. Ringo sang several songs that he either co-wrote with a another Beatle, or was lead vocal on. He also sang the song he wrote for George. Each member of the All-Starr Band performed 1 song they made popular on their own (or with a previous group). The songs they played were all familar, I just didn't know who sang them, ya know?


The last picture I took was outside of the Mandalay Bay Convention Center. We were waiting for our bus to take us back to Harrah's. While we were waiting we were told that the VIP exit was along the same side we were waiting on. My Auntie and Uncle over the check out who comes out with a couple of other people who attended the concert. While I was taking this picture, a small group of people walked out of the VIP exit and into a small black bus with a security guy following them. I thought..hmm that was kinda weird, I wonder who they are. Yeah it was Ringo. I missed it. I was so fixated on the fact that some security guy was following the group of people that I didn't even look at the the actual group of people!

In case you were wondering, the song lyrics shown in the title and in the first line of this post is from the song "Honey Don't". Imagine someone singing that to you...How Rude!

Vegas Baby!

Tomorrow morning I am leaving for Vegas, along with thousands of other people...but, I will be staying at my parents' new house. Yippy!!! It is very barey...all white walls and very little furniture. My Dad and I are going up to make it pretty for my Mom.

It will fun...until the newness wears off and I start having TV/Radio withdrawl. (Did I mention that the cable is not hooked up yet?) So, we will see out it goes.

Ooops gotta go help load up Spike (that's my Jeep for those of you who don't know!)

Lates!

I'm addicted to...

... my Sidekick
... chocolate
... crossword puzzles
... checking my email every 5 minutes
... Louis Vuitton
... listening to the radio WHILE watching TV
... TV in general
... blogging for no reason

Okay that last one is sad, but true. Nothing interesting going one right now. I am working on a crossword puzzle while watching TV and checking my email every 5 minutes...hmm...4 out of 8 at the same time. wow.

sleep would be so nice

Lately I have been having a difficult time sleeping consistantly...there would be 3 nites of no sleeping...followed by another 3 nites of nothing but sleeping. Another thing, the dreams are so vivid...and yet I don't remember anything from them, just the feelings...so strange.

My internet is not working so I am typing this on my sidekick. Not the best at internet stuff, so I must be deperate to get online. I wonder how the sidekick 3 is, and if I could get a good deal on it...hmm. My fingers are getting tired of pushing the tiny keyboard. Maybe I should try to get to sleep...maybe I will dream about my faceless boyfriend...heehee

giving into the blog...

Okay...here I am. With a blog. I know. ugh. I have noticed that I have been using the Myspace blog just a little too much now and have decided to give in and get myself started. So here I am...