Thursday, August 07, 2008

Son of a b*tch!

What the hell?! I've had it up to here with her. It's not fair, I shouldn't have to put up with all of this. I wish I could elaborate more...get it all out there...but I could lose something over it. This whole week has been so hard. I cried in front of them...ALL of them...well all but one of them...but still. I made other people cry too. I'm sorry, but some of those things had to be said. Some of those things have been eating away at me for months.

There is no question that I have been sad there every day since last fall. I never recovered from what went down. Since then its been a downward spiral. I dream of the day when I can leave and go somewhere else. What if I do and it's worse. What if I do and I find that what I left was the best?

I was there when I took this picture. Xtine had bb msg'd me asking me how I was doing. I took this picture and sent it to her. That was one day before the breakdown. I wanted to hide away under my hood. Ugh.

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