Monday, August 25, 2008

Right in the eye...

Work makes me want to take my most favoritest pen and shove it in my eye...and then swirl it around. It is a massive amount of data work that I am training people on. I wanted so badly to catch up and I'm glad I finally have the opportunity too, but it's driving me nuts at the same time. I am really learning about my weaknesses as a trainer and mini-project manager. This is by no means anywhere close to what my bosses do on a daily basis, but still...I am barely hanging on. I have been this way for MONTHS. Actually I have been this way since last fall.

It's not that I stopped caring about work, its just that I lost motivation. I lost that drive. I no longer know what I am working towards. All those things seem so far away. About a month ago I finally hit my breaking point at work. I cried...a lot...It was horrible...since then it's been better, but who knows how long it will last...or how long I will last...or if it will even help in the end.

When I'm not at work, however, I am all smiles. You make me smile. :D A lot. *giggles*

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