My mind on overdrive

I can't sleep.
Too much thinking.
Work.
Too much worrying.
Sickness.
Too much over-analyzing.
What if?

I'm worried and scared for her.
I can't even begin to imagine what is going on in her mind.
I hope she's going to be okay.

What does it mean?
How am I going to step up?
Will I even be able to?
For how long?


I want to cry, but I can't.
Instead I sit up worrying, and thinking, and over analyzing.