I don't understand why after 7 months its like your brain reset itself AGAIN. I try and I try, but still you don't get it. Instead you lean on me just a little too much. It's becoming a full time job just carrying you. I am not paid enough money for that. WHY?!

I worked a full 9 hour day today. I'm now sitting in front of my computer checking over a report that should have been completed weeks ago. I will be busting my ass tomorrow and the next day and the next day. So much for "easing" back into the work week. I want out. NOW.

For a very long time I have been unhappy at work. I found friends there to help me stay. Hell. I brought my sister on board too. It's not working. One by one my buddies are disappearing. Everyday I see how uneven things are. I work so hard and I'm paid shit. It wouldn't be so bad if I was treated good or had good benefits, but damn...they can't give us any perks...being associates they feel they are saving the company money by hiding manager digression type perks from us. No we can't have flex time, but they can. No some of us can't be reimbursed for mileage, but she can. No we can't go there or do that because its too expensive. No you won't get any recognition awards because even though you work your ass off and do a huge amount of work that it takes 2 and half people to take over your position while you're on a three week vacation, it is all expected of you.

This is my breaking point. One fun day a year and an occasional thank you is not enough anymore. I can't wait a whole year to find out if I'm doing good. I can't wait for you to notice or appreciate me. A 15% raise of nothing is a whole lot of nothing. I'm drowning in bills, my social life is a mess, and the nightmares just won't stop.